People sometimes surprise me...

I was going thru all my paperwork this weekend. That means boxes and boxes filled with pieces of paper since I'm the kind of person that doesn't throw things away (you never know when you might need it).

Anyways, I found a bunch of letters from people that had seen my pendant that was featured in the magazine Spirit and Destiny in 2003.

Some people just wrote the sweetest
things! It was because I got my pendant featured in that magazine and because of the response I got from people that I decided to start taking some jewellery courses.

It's amazing how much something that a complete stranger does for you can mean! I've decided to see if I have the email address from some of the sweetest people and if I do I will email them and ask them if they would like to receive a free present. Of course it would be great if they bought more stuff from me but that not why I'm doing it, mainly I just want to make someone else's day because they made mine all does years ago if that makes any sense.
I hope they will see it that way thou and don't think I'm just trying to be annoying because I hate spam email and people trying to sell me stuff, don't want them to think that's what I'm doing. It's just very rarely you get something for nothing these days.

Diamonds

For being a person that makes jewellery and is as interested in gemstones as me I really don't have much interest in diamonds! I do find it amazing that something created by nature can be so beautiful but I just can't get exited about a stone that you can copy by using a piece of cut glass.
Nature makes the most amazing things and I just find other stones more beautiful. I do get the fact that it's amazing how they are created and that they are becoming so rare but I'm just not a diamond kind of girl. I prefer Tanzanite and Sapphire and Rubies and loads of other great stones!
If I ever get married I doubt my ring will be a diamond ring. Then again I can't see myself getting married anytime soon so that's all null and void anyways :-)

When I grow up...

Right, it's time to start thinking about a job and I have decided I want to go for something I actually want. Problem is I don't know what that is, so I decided to go thru my mental list of every job I ever wanted and why I wanted it and see if that leads me anywhere.
And I have no idea why but I decided to do that on here! Not that I think it's all that interesting or anything but please just humour me.
When I was little all I wanted to be was a singer. I was dead intent on this until I was about 13 and my mother told me I was rubbish so I needed to come up with something else (my mother is not one to mince her words). Thing is I still sing, everyday all the time! And it says quite a lot about my now previous workmates that they never had me killed over this because I'm sure it's annoying as hell to listen to.
I did secretly keep dreaming about becoming a singer after my mothers harsh words but I did also come up with a plan B.
Plan B was that I wanted to be a journalist! And not just any kind but a war correspondent. The idea of reporting about a war somewhere whilst actually being there just strikes me as the perfect job. The thing is I grew up in Sweden and to get into journalist school I actually needed to have straight A's in every subject. Sad to say I didn't (nowhere close in fact).
So instead I went for travelling (which I've wanted to do since I was about 5) which is how I ended up here.
After doing some waitressing and stuff here, I started making jewellery and got a decent job as an admin clerk. I discovered that jewellery really was one of my passions in life and also that I was a natural at being an admin clerk.
One day I can hopefully live of being a jewellery designer but at the moment I can't so will need another job to. The thing is I think that even when I can be a jeweller full time I will need to do something else too because I enjoy being bossy and organized. So really what I want is a job where I get to tell people what to do and organise things.
Oh and I want to help. I mean I want to do something useful that actually helps someone so maybe so kind of charity work?
I'm thinking about moving again, maybe to another country this time and as I've already mentioned before I am thinking about travelling for awhile. It would be nice If I could afford to go around the world but it looks more like I might go for a couple of month and travel around America. Maybe I can just split it into parts and do America first?! Who knows!?
*Gah* this is not going anywhere! I don't know what I want to do! I want to make jewellery and travel and write and help people and organize paperwork and be the boss and oh so much stuff! Can't I just be leader of the world?! That would fill all criteria except for the jewellery one but I can do that in my spare time.
*sigh* there just isn't enough hours and years in a lifetime to get all the living I want done into it.

Looks like I might be moving soon. Not sure what's going on with that yet thou. Can't really find somewhere before I get a job again because I doubt anyone will have me!
But I guess that could be interesting.
If I do move it will be a xmas. Which really isen't the nices time of year to be thinking of moving house but what can you do!
Will see what happens and update.

Bye bye work!

Last day at work today! It felt really strange. After all I have been working there for the last 5 years!
I think it would have been less strange if the place wasn’t closing down and I was just leaving because I had another job or something, but seeing the place so empty and saying goodbye to everyone was just odd.
I kept altering between feeling sad and ridiculously happy. I mean I am getting some money for being made redundant so if I don’t spend it that will sure come in handy when planning the future!
I just realised that this is kind of the first time ever I’ve had a large sum of money that’s not meant for anything special…how strange!
Don’t worry I am not planning on going spending mad or anything, in fact I’m spending as little as possible until I have a new job.
Yeah yeah I know I should have started looking already but technically I am still employed for another 4 day (which just happens to be my roted days off) so I don’t have to get to stressed about it yet and I have signed up for an agency.
I just feel that this is my chance at getting a job that means something to me, or should I just get one for the money?
Wouldn’t it be great if I could find one that fills both criteria!
But I’m not thinking about that today! Today is a day for feeling a bit sad that I will never see so many people that I have seen almost everyday for the last 5 years and the knowledge that I will miss them…

Blah!

I've been off for 3 days and I keep intending to post something but my mind is blank. I can't think of anything even remotly interesting to post about!
Maybe I should write about the dream I had last night because that was interesting and strange! Naa think I'll just go to bed instead.

World domination

Do you ever get that feeling that if you got to rule the world things would be sooo much better? I do! I keep thinking that if everybody just did what I told them to do things would be so much better.
And yes I know thats bad because I'm all for democracy and so on, but really everything would just be better.

Not fair!!!

Bad day today! Got a rejection from a gallery. Apparently my jewellery was to ethnic looking for them????
Anyway, feeling all sad and miserable now and just want to go to bed and pull the duvet over my head. Don't feel like doing anything! :-(
Going drumming tonight so hopefully that will cheer me up!
But for now I'm gone go and have a nap and hopefully dream of something pleasent.

Tiaras.

I've been thinking about making wedding tiaras but find it quite a daunting task for some reason.
I have made a couple of designs for a couple wedding crowns that I would like to make, you know daint little crowns like something out of a grimms fairytale.
I used to love fairytales when I was younger. I remember this relly sweet one about a prinscess with the most beautiful voice that got taken by the trolls. She was so cute in the picture of her with red dungerees and then this little crown on her head!
And once my swedish teacher told me of for saying cinderella went to the ball 3 nights in a row. Well if you read the actually fairytale she did!
And don't get me started on the little mermaid. That one made me cry, and not in a good way. Atleast the Cinderella one has a happy ending!
Anyways Tiaras. Will definitly work on that...

Going for a little trip!

Just realised I have something big that I haven't mentioned. Depending on how things go in the next couple of months I have been planning to go on an around the world trip next year!!
I'm planning to use my redundancy money. If that's not enough then I might just make it an half way around the world trip!

Job hunting!

Should go and hunt for work today since I finish at my old job at the end of this month. I just really don't want to! I guess part of me is hoping for a small miracle meaning I wont have to and can just start doing my jewellery fulltime.
But not yet. Problem is finding a job where I don't just get saturday& sunday off. Maybe a part time job. But right now things are a bit of a mess (not my jewellery, other stuff) so I should problebly go for a fulltime job until I know for sure what's going on.
Sadly this means I have to job hunt...
This shouldn't be so hard because (and yes I know I sound full of myself) I'm damn good at what I do! Now I'm the first to admit being a clerk isn't hard work but there is still different levels of getting by on a job and I am Good! Very good infact! Then again I guess a possible future employer wont know that from just meeting me.
And yes I know that sometimes my spelling leaves more to desire but that's whats Word for ;-)
Plus to be honest I don't check my speeling as much as I should when posting blogs.
I slept late today, got up at 10 when i should have gotten up at 8.30. I feel dead guilty about thart now :-( But I was up late fixing with my new work room. I'm probebly moving soon so it might seem like a bit of a waste doing it now but I really need a workroom and I need it now. Can't wait for it to be finished! So exited!
But yeah, job hunting is next on list *sigh*

Poem

Everything is so fragile.
There's so much conflict, so much pain...
you keep waiting for the dust to settle
and then you realise
This is it!
The dust is your life going on.
If happy comes along, that weird underable delight that's actual happy
I think you have to grap it while you can.
You take what you can get, 'cause it's here and then...
Gone

Work studio.

Turning one of the bedrooms in my house into a work studio. It's far from ideal but will have to do for now. Esapecially since rent everywhere is so expensive and I can't afford to pay both the rent and pay for somewhere to do my jewellery. Want to move somewhere cheaper but that is also easier said then done. Only problem is that I rent so have to be careful so I don't burn or melt something. Almost makes me want to move home and live in my granddads house because I could soo turn his workshop into a jewellery studio and I would love to work there!
But sadly that means living close to my parents (like on the same yard close) in the village where I grew up and since I have no friends there and could see my self slowly going mad I don't think that's the answer either.

Feel wonky!

Having brain meltdown and suffering from a cold. Bad combination!